Struggling

Did you know that trying to go gluten free is damn near impossible when you like foods that aren't good for human consumption?  I have the hardest time finding things I like.

I'm still trying to go grain free, yes, but I thought going off gluten to start would be best.  So I've tried to cut out all I could.  I did stop eating morning "candy" (AKA, cereal).  The reason being is that even Cheerios (supposed to be oats) has wheat flour.  I've tried to stay away from breads as a whole.  But, I did have some cake at birthday boy 1's party yesterday, and today birthday boy 2 had cheese cake.  I could have eaten just the cheesy portion but I figured I had cake yesterday so a few graham crackers (yup, wheat in them) isn't going to kill me.  I'll have to start over, again, tomorrow.

I'm a bit disillusioned at our foods in our country.  High Fructose Corn Syrup (HFCS) in light yogurt (or even corn starch in some weird Greek yogurt my kids had today).  HFCS in marshmallows.  Wheat or some form of it in nearly everything.  Even fruit snacks have HFCS.  Corn fed cows are FAT cows, and I don't want the FAT.

So, I'm trying.  I've never been much of a foodie.  I like pasta, I like pizza, but these things are made with grain.  And as I sit here typing, my gut is crying at me again.  I give it another 5 minutes and I'll be on the potty again, for the 4th time in the last hour.

I'm not going to lie, though.  When I go to Anchorage this month to see my doctor, I'm going to be stopping at Arby's.  It's kind of counter productive, but I just love me some of that roast beef and cheddar.  Maybe I can eat it without a bun.  Though I'd have to do that in the terminal of the airport because it's kind of messy otherwise.

So, anyway.  There it is.  In black and white.  I know what I need to do.  But getting there on a ramen noodle budget is hard.  It burns me that a bag of chips is cheaper than a bag of apples.  Or that a bag of candy is cheaper than a bag of grapes.  Processed crap is cheaper than buying fresh.  It bugs me.  And the US needs to stop.  Otherwise our children are going to grow up fat with a plethora of gut problems.

End rant.