22 August 2012

Eh

I've lost about 5 or 6 pounds.  I do ok during work.  I take my broccoli and cauliflower for snacks.  I drink my one pepsi.  I have my coffee in the morning.  Then get I get home, and fall off the damn wagon.  I am not feeling good, so I eat.  And I eat crap.  So it makes me not feel good.  I went two days without pooping.  And when I did, it was a healthy (for me) poop.  That was eating healthy.  If I eat crap, I go back to having to run, with butt cheeks clenched, to the bathroom.  Because I ate crap.  I ate bread.  So I go to work the next day, and I eat healthy again.  But I get home, and shit hits the fan, no one is happy, I have a head ache, and so I eat crap.  Then I'll have to crap that crap out.  Go back to work and eat healthy.  You know what my lunch was today?  Cottage cheese, an apple, and chicken breast.  I got my "good carbs" from the cauliflower I had for snack.  Breakfast was some grapes.  I mean, really, I ate well, and felt full.  Hell, when we had a going away party at work, I filled my plate with all the yummy pot-luck goodness like I normally do, and it literally sat on the plate until well into the afternoon.  I was just too full to eat much.  But this binge eating at home because shit sucks, or I'm tired, or I'm cranky, or the kids pissed me off, or I have a headache, needs to STOP.  It just needs to stop.

12 August 2012

Trying again

I'm not going to go crazy trying to go Primal. I failed last time, miserably.  So, I'm going slow.  Going to start with doing my best to go gluten free.  That's what I need the most.  I'm still eating rice, and even bought some rice crackers for a snack.  I am eating better, and trying to stay away from the junk.  I've done well enough that when we had the potluck at work, I was full before I even ate 1/4 of the food on the plate.  It took me nearly all day to munch on the little bit I took.  I did eat potato salad, but it was still no gluten.  I still have my one Pepsi a day, but I don't mind.  Baby steps this time.  I don't know that I'll ever be Grok.  I enjoy my sweet way too much.